Title : Wrong love (part 2)
yaoi

by chichi333


Daesung was almost running in the hotel, Tempo with him. He recived a call from Seung Ri , he sound so upset on the phone. It was almost scary. The only thing he told him it's that something terrible happened and that he was alone in that hotel room. Since the situation look serious, he brought Tempo with him . They arrived in the room.

Seung Ri was still in the bed, crying.
-Are you okay ? Daesung immediatly tooks him in his arms.
-What's going on ? Tempo asked , closing the door behind him.
-Seung Ri ... I asked him to come just in case ... tell me what happened.

HE told them everything and then cover his face to hide his tears.

-It's okay ! We're there now.
-So ... did he raped you or something ? Tempo asked visibly mad at DongHae.
-No ... he didn't ...
-Really ? He tooks advantage of you ... I'm gonna kick his ass ...
-Tempo ! Please ... , Daesung said to him.
-DaeSung ...
-Yes ?
-Why did I bleed ? Is something wrong with me ? Seung Ri asked all scared.

Tempo and DaeSung exchanged a glance.
-No ... it's because it was your first time ... it's always like that ... do you think that you can walk ?
-Yes !
-Alright ! We're gonna wait for you here, go take a shower and ... we'll leave . Okay ?
-Okay ... guys ... please don't tell anyone about it .
-Are you kidding me ? That serious ... we can't keep it ... , Tempo start to say, he was obviously mad.
-We'll see that later, first we have to leave this hotel. Go ! Daesung say.

Remaining alone , they start to discussed about the situation :

-That just crazy ! He must be so heartbroken.
-And I can't believe you actually encouraged him to come and see this guy here. That so irresponsable DaeSung.
-I never thought it would turned like that ...
-Well ... surprise ! Surprise ! this guy just stole his innocence ... Seung Ri didn't even know why he was bleeding ... DongHae totally took advantage of him because he's young and doesn't know what he's doing.
-We should just keep it for ourself from now ... we'll see later what we can do.

-Alright ... help me out ! Tempo say , removing the sheets from the bed.
-For what ?
-We have to take care of this bed ... imagine if some paparazzi find out what happened ...
-I see.

Seung Ri came back , all ready and dress up.

The sheets in the hand , Tempo say :

-I'm gonna putt them in the bath tub. Leave before me, i'll take care of everything.
-Okay !

The 2 boys took a taxi and went back to the studio. Seung Ri felt so sad, DaeSung could feel it.
-Do you want something to eat ?
-No ... I just want to talk to him .
-What ? Forget it !
-You don't understand ... he loves me , I know it.
-I don't think so ...
-I know he does ... when he kissed me ... I felt it ...
-Seung Ri ... forget him. there 's no point.
-I can't ... it's too late. i need to talk to him. Can you help me ?
-No ! I can't do that.
-I thought you were my friend.
-I am your friend, that why I don't want him to be near you anymore. I never thought that you would actually sleep with him ... I was just teasing you. I hate what he did to you and I don't want you to see him.
-You don't understand ... even if he hurted me ... I need to talk to him.
-You're just gonna get hurt again.
-I don't care ... I can't go back now. i can't. Please ... would you help me ?
-Listen ... we'll see ... we have a meeting at 2 so , you'll get some sleep before, okay ?
-Okay ... , He sight. HE couldn't go back now. He wanted to see DongHae so bad.

"DongHae ... I thought you loved me ..." He thought as he closed his eyes and felt asleep in the car, on his friend 's shoulder.



DongHae couldn't think straight. He was so mad at himself.
"What did I do ? Damn !"

He grabs his cellphone and wanted to call him :

"No ! Not now ... I need to think of the whole situation ... this boy is only 16 and I'm 21 ... why do I feel this way about him ? "

He sat on the chair and closed his eyes. He could feel his heart beating faster than usual. He just realised that he has feelings for the boy before yesterday ... or maybe only yesterday ? It was so weird !

"He's 16 ... can't believe I did that to him ..."

Lost in his thoughs , he didn't noticed Shiwon coming behind him.

-Hey ! Are you okay ?
-Oh ... yes ! Hi !
-You look really ... upset . Something wrong ?
-No ! not at all ... I'm just ...
He sight and stopped talking.

-DongHae what 's wrong ?
-it's complicated . I did something really bad and ... I just don't know why it happened like that ... and what should I do . He felt like he was gonna cry.
-What happened ?
-I don't want to talk about it now. I already feel bad now ...
-I'm worry ... do you need money ? A family problem ?
-no ... look ... I'll come to you and talk but, not now please. He stoods up and left the room.

Shiwon look at the door he slammed before he left :

"what 's wrong with him ? "




Lee Teuk was playing the piano in the big room of the theatre . It was empty at this hour . he always came here when he needs to relax and think , plus he loves this piano. It was old , white and sound so good.

The notes felt heavy as he pressed his fingers on it. Last year he tooks a classical -baroque class here , in this art faculty. He actually had a private tutor and he loved it. but most of all, this place remind him of the last year incident.
Since this day , for one year he've been thinking of him , not knowing what to do ... the one he loves almost see him as a "fuck friend". Because that what they were : everytime they see each other it was for sex and nothing else. Sometimes they talk ... a little bit. But they didn't really say what they should ...

Lee Teuk knew that deep inside him, he was in love with the other , but he would never tell him. What was the point ? A relationship was impossible between them. Sometimes the other act cold toward him and other times it was him who was like that. A weird relation they had , for now a year. Sad ! Yes it was .
But as much as he wanted, he just couldn't stop it. And if the other kept coming back to him, maybe he felt the same way ? Maybe not ?He just gave up trying to understand ... he felt so happy everytime he was with him , but depressed as the same time , knowing that their relation was not going anywhere ...

He heard someone clapping behind him. Lee Teuk stopped playing. He turns his head. It was him . Why was he there ?

-Hi ! He said calmly.
-Hi ! The other replied on the same tone. He came closer and was now standing in front of Lee teuk, his hands in his pockets.
-Can I help you ?
-Yes ! It's about one of the Suju 's members.
-really ? Who ?
-DongHae.
-ok .. what about him ?
-He slept with Seung Ri ... who 's not even 17 yet.
-What are youtalking about Seung Hyun ?
-How many times do I have to tell you to call me TOP ?
-Whatever ! So what are you saying ?

TOP told him the whole story.

-I'm surprise ... he doesn't look like DongHae ...
-He tooks advantage of Seng Ri . Talk to him and tell him that I want him to stay away from Seung Ri. If I heard that he try to see him again ... I'll kick his ass. tell him that.

His voice was cold and look obviously really mad, but was trying to manage to stay calm.

-Look who's talking ...
-Pardon ?
-You're 20 and I'm 24 ... but we ...
-It's not the same ! TOP cut him off.
-If you say so.
-He's 16 and How old is DongHae again ?
-21 .
-That my point ! Seung Ri still a child and he thinks that DonGhae really loves him. he's confused. Like us he worked really hard to get in the music industry, I don't think he need a scandal like that. DongHae already broke his heart ... he almost rapted him ... I think it's enough.
-Don't talk about DongHae like that ...
-Really ? So you think it's right for an adult to have sex with a kid ?
-It's not like that ... and Seung Ri is almost 17 ...
-You shut up , ok ? DongHae has no excuses. If Seung Ri's parents learns that , they will sue him and it's gonna be the end of your band , you know that ! The media will jump on that scandal and he'll ruin alot of people lifes. Including Seung Ri.
-You seems to care ... alot for him .
-He 's like a little brother to me ... I have to protect him from people like DongHae ... he's too innocent and doesn't understand the adult world .
-What about you ?
-What ?
-Nothing ! Listen ... I'll talk to him ... and i'm really sorry for what happened


TOP sight and say :

-I'm sorry too ... I shouldn't putt my nerves on you like that ... but I'm just worry for Seung Ri.
-I understand .
-I have to go ... so bye.
-Bye !
-By the way ...
-What ? Lee Teuk asked , he was still sitting on the banch in front of the piano.
-Can I see you ... tomorrow night ? HE asked scratting his head a little bit nervous.
-Yes ... where ?
-Here ! If you can be available around 8 ... maybe we can talk ...
-Sure ...

Both seems embarrassed by the situation and avoid to look at each other 's eyes :
-Okay ! I'm leaving ...
-Bye !

TOP came closer to him and kiss him on the lips and then left. Lee teuk felt funny.

"He kissed me ... " that make him smile. "He wants to talk tomorrow ? About us ? " He thoughts looking at the piano in front of him.








They were all back from the meeting. 4 hours of meeting to decide about the comcept of the new album nad others details. Seung Ri was tired, plus he felt really sick the whole day. Just now, he felt dizzy , like if he had a fever. He went to his bed early. TOP came to check on him :

-Do you need anything ?
-No ...
-Are you okay ?
-I think I'm a little bit sick ...
-really ?
- I throw up twice today and ... my temperature is high.

TOP brought his hand to Seung Ri forehead.
-Yeah ... it's pretty high ... I'll get you something.
-Thanx !

He come back later with some tylenol and water.

-Take that from now , and tomorrow you should be okay .
-I don't know how I got sick ...
-You know ... some people ... sometimes they 're like that after their first time because ... the body kind of doesn't know how to react ...
-I don't understand .
-Never mind ! you'll be fine. I took care of everything.
-What do you mean ?
-I made sure that he doesn't approach you again.
-But ... he loves me ... why did you do that ? did you saw him ? Did you talked to him ?
-I didn't see him. I really hate what he did to you and you have to stop thinking that he loves you because , it's not the case. if it was, he would never had leave like he did. He's 21 and you're 16 ... it's just not right.
-I'm almost 17 ...
-You still a minor. Can you imagined how yours parents will react if they learn the story ? Or the media ?
-Don't tell them ... please ...
-I will not . You have my word. But if he contacts you, don't even try to see him. Forget him, because I think he already did it about you.
-TOP why are you so ... cruel ?
-I'm not cruel. I'm trying my best to help you. I'm older than you and I know what is good for you. Forget him Seung Ri. It's impossible between you and him. You're not the same age and he doesn't care about you.
-You're so mean ...
-I'm just telling you the reality. Adult world is really cruel. You have to realised it. Night !

TOP left the room. He knew that he was being rude to Seung Ri but he has to do it in order to protect him.
"I hope ... you can understand one day ...".



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Alone in the bedroom , Seung Ri start to think of DongHae " THey don't understand ... I'm not just having a stupid <<school's boy crush>> I really love him ... I just can't stop. Why would I lie to myself ? ".

He suddenly hears his cellphone ringing. It wa sone the floor, he grabs it and answer :

-Yoboseyo ?

<<no answer!>>

-Allo ? Whos is it ?

The person just hang up.

-What was that ... , he checked the number . As a big surprise , he recognised it : it was DongHae 's number.

"DongHae ... ". He tried to call him back but nobody answered. After trying 7 times , he hang up and throw his cell phone on the fllor. In his bed he couldn't fall asleep. DongHae was all in his mind

"And they want me to forget you ? How can I do that ? How when you're calling me like that ?"





" Alone in this room full of instruments , I can still feel your presence ... maybe you're not gonna come tonight ? I don't know ..." He sat the little old sofa , the only furniture in the room. It was a brown velvet sofa. As he wait for him , he remember how they met last year in a really random circonstance.
He was leaving the school around 8 pm , hurry to meet the others SUJU members for a coffee.
Just in front of the school , some random guys that he didn't know start to insult him, as he ignore them , they start to throw stones at him and then they attacked him. They were almost his age and really agressive , one of them had a knife. They beat him once and wanted to steal his money too, and suddenly : HE arrived .

"Hey ! You ! Wanna die ?"

His voice was loud and he looks so rebel , all dressed in black. He didn't hesitate and jumped in the fight. He fought with them for a couples minutes and even if he was alone , they didn't win. They ran away shouting at him that they would find him and kick his ass.

He then turn to me and asked :

"Are you okay ?" His face was covered of bruises and blood from the fight, but he didn't seems to suffered.

"I 'm fine ... thanx ."

"Do you know them ?"
"No ... but I guess they know me, that the inconvenient of being a singer."

"You are a singer ?" He asked surprised but not impressed.
"Yeah ... don't tell me that you never heard of Super junior ? "
"What kind of music is that ?"
"Pop ..."

"I don't listen to that crap. ".
"Thanx !"

"Welcome ! " HE respond looking at me.
At first I find him really arrogant but since he saved my life , I decide to stay polite.

" Maybe we should go back inside to ... clean ourself and ... I think you need a bandage." I said pointing at his arm, covered of blood.


And then we came in that room , together , for the first time but not the last one ....

"So ... do you study here too ?"
"Yeah ! Acting !"

"Cool ... earlier you said that you didn't listen to pop ... what do you like ?"
"Hip hop !"
"I see ... oh ! I didn't introduced myself : I'm Lee Teuk , nice to meet you."

"You can call me TOP or TEMPO ..."
"TOP ? okay ..."

"And you , what do you study there ? "
"Piano ! "

-That cool ... by the way , thanx for the bandage ... he said raising his arm in the air.
-I'm the one who should say that ... were you not scared ?
-No ..., He then smile at me , it was the first time I saw him smiling . I think that when I fell in love.


Later I found out that he was in a band too "Big Bang". HE didn't told me ...
I was still going to the school, even when there was no exams. Maybe because I wanted to see him ?
And he was always there, practicing some scenes. During his breaks, he always come to chat with me in that room. He sat on the sofa and watched me playing.

Then one night , he kissed me , I respond thinking

" His younger than me ... what am I doing ?".

But he was major and mature enough, so I guess it was fine.
First time we had sex it was in that room too ... then we did it almost every week : on the sofa, on the floor, on the piano .... everywhere. Maybe that why I could feel him even when he wasn't around ?


Lee Teuk came back from reality when he heard someone opening the door. It was TOP . He entered and sat next to him on the sofa :

"Hi !"

"Hi ..."

-HOw long did you wait ?
-I just came ..., Lee Teuk lied. " I was there 1 hour ago." HE thought.
-okay !
-I 'm gonna talk to DongHae ... tonight.
-ok ! Thanx ... what's up ?
-My band received a new contract ... to promote our album in China.
-That cool !
-Yeah ! And some of the members will have to move there ...
-THat ... include you ?
-Since I'm the leader, it's not even an option.
-For how long ?
-Don't know ... maybe 3 months ... less or more , I don't know.
-That ... alot.
-Well ... it's not like if anybody 's gonna miss me here ...
-Why are you saying that ? TOP asked looking at him.

"Don't look at me like that ..." Lee Teuk thought " ... don't look at me like if you cared about me leaving the country ..."

-I'm saying because ... my friends are the SUJU member's so , except for my family ... I don't think that people are gonna miss me.
-Yours fans ...
-But that different.
-And you , are you gonna miss ... someone ? TOP asked trying to not sound concerned , even if deep inside him , the only thing he was thinking was " I wish ... you could say : me ... how can you even think of leaving when I need you ? When I want you ? Are you that blind Lee Teuk ? "

-What kind of question is that ..., That what Lee TEuk said , laughing, to covered his real feelings.
-Well ... hope you get used to the life there ... do you speak a lil bit of mandarin or cantonese ?
-Yes ... some mandarin , cos one of our member is chinese.
-Good !
-What about you ?
-We just have a new song ... "LIE".
-Oh ... what is it about ?
-It's about ... someone lying about his feelings ... pretending that he's not in love even if he knows that he's lying to himself.
TOP say it avoiding to look at Lee Teuk.
-That ... sad.
-Yeah !
-Who wrote the lyrics ?
-Our leader and me .
-Okay ... can't wait to hear it ... I'll give you my feedback on it.
-Thanx !
-You look tense ...
-Hum ... i just came back from a dance practice ... it's the part I hate the most in my job.
-Really ? I think it's fun to dance.
-Sure , when you know how to dance.
-But ... you're a good dancer.
-Oh God no ! I'm not flexible enough ... Seung Ri is a dancer. Not me !
-I like ... to see you dance. Lee Teuk confessed blushing, he turns his face pretending to look at the piano on his right.
-Thank ... I like to see you playing ... the piano.
-Thanx ... , he said smiling.


"This smile ... why can't I say what I really feel ? I'm so tired to lie to myself about you Lee Teuk ... that why I'm tense. The dance routine has nothing to do with it. CAn you not go to China and ... stay here with me ?" He thought looking at Lee Teuk.

They suddenly heard the thunder outside :

-That was loud ...
-Lee Teuk ?
-Yes ?
-Can you closed yours eyes ?
-Why ?
-Do you trust me ?
-ok ... He closed his eyes , only to feel TOP 's lips pressing against his. HE wraps his arms around him and they kissed .

" TOP ... if you only knew ... I wish you could ask me to stay. But I am only dreaming , right ? He will never happened because ... you don't feel the way I do. I don't blame you. For you I'm just a fuck friends ... because we sleep together but we talk to, we listen to each other ... I just wish you could read me and ask me to stay ... ".



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Seung Ri was walking in the street , his hood 's sweater almost covering his face , so far nobody recognized him. He was just coming back from a store where he bought a new Ipod, when he noticed this guy in the street , he has a hat so Seung Ri couldn't see his face , but he immediatly recognized him. He follow him for a couples minutes. Then he lost his trace in a street corner. He went there , when he heard his voice :

"You ! Why are you following me ?"

It's only when he turns to face him and removed his hood that DongHae recongnized him as well :

"Seung Ri ..." He looks really surpised.
"Hi ... sorry ..."

THey were alone in that corner. It was quiet except for the thunder which was announcing the rain tonight :

-It's really late ... you shouldn't be alone in the street.
-You're not happy to see me ?
-I am ... I just ... , HE end up his sentence by a sight, not knowing what to tell the other.
-DongHae ... I couldn't tell you that before but since we did it ... I feel like I can tell you everything ... I love you. And ... never been that happy before. The day we spend together was so special. It's mean alot to me. You have no idea how I missed you ... even if it's only been a day ... I'm really in love with you. It's not a stupid crush,, nobody better than myself can tell the way I feel : and I feel good with you.

What he said just broke DongHae's heart. HE was being sincere with him.
-Listen ... I really appreciate your honesty ... but you have to understand that you're younger than me and that ... it's impossible between us.
-But tell me ... do you love me or not ?
-That not the question ...
-Please ... I need to know ... if you only refused to be with me because of my age , it's stupid. But if you don't want me because you don't like me ... I'll understand.
-Seung Ri ... I'm sorry ... I'm not in love ... with you.

THis sentence just knocked him down, Seung Ri felt like a car just hit him.
-So ... why did slept with me ? I thought ... you loved me ...
-No ... I'm sorry ... it's just happened because ... I don't know. But I know the way I feel toward you ... I like you as a friend but ... I'm not in love.
-Ok ... I will not bothered you anymore.
-Seung Ri ...
-It's fine ... I must go now ... , he start to walk away as fast as he could.

DongHae let him go. He felt horrible, but he knew he didn't have the choice :

"It's the right thing to do for you ... one day you'll understand and maybe you'll stop feeling the way you do now."


DaeSung was practicing his vocal with a microphonne and his laptop , when he heard his cell phone ringing :

"Damn ! I'm busy ... who is it ?"

-Yoboseyo ?
-DaeSung ...
-Allo ? The only thing he could hears was someone crying.
-Can you come please ... I need you ...
-Seung Ri ? Is that you ?
-Yes ... it's over now ... it's over ...
-Where are you ?


Later , he founds him in a coffe shop. He sat next to him :

-Seung Ri ... what happened ? By his red eyes he could tell that he has been crying.
-Tell me ... did someone already broke your heart ?
-Yes ! He gently put his hand on Seung Ri 's shoulder.
-THe pain ... is it gonna go one day ? Because right now ... it's the only thing I feel.
-What happened ?
-TOP was right ... he doesn't love me. I feel so ... hurt.
-I know ...



When they went back at home, TOP was already there . He join them in the bedroom :

-DaeSung ... I called you twice , it's pretty late and rainning outside where were you ...

He didn't finish to talk , Seung Ri stood up from the bed and next thing he knew , the young boy
was crying in his arms . He understood by looking at DaeSung who was avoiding to look at them :

"It's ok Seung Ri ... you'll be fine ..." He murmured to him , pressing him against his chest.


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Shiwon who was worry for DongHae , was looking for him in the house, HE founds him in the living room, on the sofa. He looks really depressed.

-DongHae ... did you already ate ?
-No ... I'm not hungry.

Shiwon sat next to him :

-Can I do something for you ?
-Yes ...
-What ?
-Can you just ... take me in yours arms ? I just feel nothing right now except the fact that ... I hate myself ... and hate what i did ...

Shiwon tooks him in his arms :

-I'm there for you ... don't worry ...

DongHae closed his eyes and fall asleep in Shiwon's arms , thinking of Seung Ri .