Hi my name's Amy and I realize that the character Jean Grey is technically deceased, however I was very much hoping I could play her, reborn by the Phoenix. No X-men rpgs offer Jean Grey as a playable character and I always wanted to play her. I'm an advanced rp player and I would promise to do her justice. Here are a few rp examples:
Sugar, spice and everything nice? Not really, since although a positive, likeable person who doesn't like to dwell on the negative things in life, and would rather goof around instead of worrying about tomorrow's problems today, Jean seems an odd choice for the type of characters she belongs to - namely surgeons. In fact, it could be said that she sticks out like a sore thumb from the usual lacking of emotion the max. While some may go so far as labeling her as a typical politician in the making, Jean takes any chance she has got to indicate one of the corniest things out there: we've all got light and dark inside us, so she doesn't believe she falls under a specific category. Nonetheless, everyone's entitled to their opinion in that respect.
Miss Jean Crawford is that woman sitting with her fellow graduates, a large group chatting with someone who's probably half the IQ of any of the poli sci and has more of a social life than the whole group put together. At the same time, she can't help but keep on mingling with nurses, paramedics, and patients too, and a fine observer would notice that she cannot settle for talking just with one person or small group for too long. A truly happy-go-lucky person, what takes people aback about her is the fact that she is often times perceived as being quite friendly and easily distracted, whereas others of her group don't exactly seem cut out of a fairytale with rainbows and butterflies. If one is (un)lucky enough, Jean will even strike a conversation with that person when they least expect it, and will perhaps make a memorable impression by a. tripping over her own two feet and taking that person down with her too, b. hugging one to death if one seems like a possible snugglebuddy o.o, or c. pulling a knife-hand strike out of the Tae Kwon Do techniques she has learned during her lifetime. Should the last possibility occur, fear not: chances are one of Jean’s friends will release said person from their unfortunate situation. Once one gets to know Jean and interact with her more, it doesn't take a genius to grasp the fact that she's not that hard a person to get along with, given her charming aura and amicable demeanor. Just let her talk until her lungs will give in and, unless she'll spill a bowl of punch on you or will be indirectly responsible for falling and nearly breaking your neck, she will most likely become part of your social circle. And at least if she breaks your neck, she can always fix it back up!
With a positive outlook on life despite the constant discrepancies between reality and her dreams, Jean is a fairly optimistic and energetic person, to the point where she might annoy the hell out of people who don't understand from where her spunky attitude comes. A true bundle of sunshine, the brunette would rather continue to be so even when her hopes are dashed, since as far as she's concerned, it's pointless to see only the half empty side of the glass. What point would there be in constantly lamenting her current situation or being depressed about whatever bleak perspective of the future she sometimes considers? None at all, hence maintaining her positivity at whatever cost. Even if said personality trait has enabled her to also suffer many disappointments, Jean is not crazy happy, nor does she need that positive thinking to keep her from going insane. She merely wishes not to let everything that could screw up in her life affect her on a large scale, or make her turn into a psycho bitch again. In addition, as a true believer in the three E's (aka enterprise, energy and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar), the brunette enjoys travelling and exploration. A free soul, Jean doesn't take it kindly when she is bound to one place forever, instead preferring it when she is at least given the illusion of being able to go wherever her own two feet take her. Given the fact that she also apparently has an almost endless supply of energy, it’s a good thing she has plenty of activities to fill her time with. For this reason, Jean hates being cooped up for too long, and absolutely detests being sick and having to lie in bed. Therefore, she sometimes feels tied down and suffocated in hospitals, so she has repeatedly tried to get out of it. Despite her best of efforts, though, she's failed to accomplish said goal, so while her cage may seem larger than that of the patients, it's still been her cage for many years, keeping her from experiencing life. She merely sees it in a different light most of the time and attempts to not focus on the drawbacks or let that tingling sensation of metaphorical asphyxiation change her.
An absolute clown in her spare time, Crawford can be a little kid at heart. Silly things make her chuckle and she is the sort of girl who will pull funny faces or tell EXTREMELY lame jokes just to get a reaction out of someone who’s feeling down in the dumps. Often, her jokes are so bad that they cause listeners to laugh at her rather than at the actual joke but she doesn’t particularly care, so long as they are laughing. It's not that she cannot bear seeing people in low spirits, but that she truly believes that everyone has an inner child and it’s only healthy to release it now and then. As well as because she's chosen to lead her afterlife following the "make the most of now" expression due to a desire to actually change and seek atonement for her past wrongdoings. (Yet she no longer thinks it's possible for her to be forgiven for her mistakes, so she's settled for trying to somewhat make up for them.) Frankly, she acknowledges that her attempts to make life seem rosier in her whereabouts is no easy task, still Jean has had many years to muse on her attitude. As a result of having been exceedingly emotional, livid and pessimistic once she realized she had almost wasted her life doing nothing of importance and then eventually landed in Hell, she's tried "reinventing" herself. Much to her dismay, giving everyone a second chance and going out of her way to get along with most people don't come without a price (mainly coming off as being exaggeratedly chipper at times). Against all odds, however, her friendliness and lively behaviour haven't aroused in order to express some form of magnified blind optimism, as she's not idiotic to imagine that her work environment, which is also where most residents spend all their time, is going to become a place with buttercup meadows and strawberry fields, filled with Crawfords which have white picket fences and enthusiastic people where no one dies and there is no pain whatsoever. That doesn't mean that she will be the one responsible for killing anyone however, thus preventing as many deaths as she can with the skill she has and maybe even solve a few of her cousin’s cases when he can’t figure them out.
Don't get your hopes up, since Jean is by no means book-smart, but more street-wise and witty rather than actually clever. Even though she possesses good judgment, can exchange witty banters, loves to initiate new projects and has an urge to understand conceptions that are new to her, Jean merely thinks quick on her feet rather than be smart. Intuitive and cunning, she's also better at adapting than inventing and is at her best when working with colleagues of other types of character that compliment her own (which explains her preference for having gorilla buddies too). In addition, Jean thrives in social situations, as she secretly enjoys popularity amongst her peers and is the sort of woman who seems to know everyone at a party, at least by name or face. If she doesn’t, she has no qualms introducing herself, because she genuinely enjoys having plenty of friends and meeting new people. Maybe it's her warmth and playful charm that put people at ease, and explain why Jean could probably talk Eskimos into buying ice and Jawas into buying sand. After all, she still is a manipulative witch and getting her way is what she does best, considering the fact that she was one of the best in her year in med school. While she will also talk the ear off anyone who will listen, she is capable of making full use of every sentence and swiftly chosen word that flies out of her mouth sometimes – whether it’s for the purpose of charming, lying, spinning a good yarn or talking her way out of trouble. Shockingly shrewd and diplomatic when acquired, Crawford never burns bridges unless absolutely necessary and does not engage in petty squabbles with fellow doctors as far as she can. Thus, it takes a lot to pick a fight with the young woman, since she is able to hold her nose and charm even colleagues she dislikes, preferring to have the option of calling in favors in the future. Despite her easy-going and affable disposition that leads some to think she ALWAYS makes decisions off the cuff in her usual spontaneous way, the truth is that beneath the surface, cold logic and rational thought rule the way she handles things pertaining to medicine. When it comes to work, she leads with her head, not her heart. This does not mean she is evil or deliberately ill-intentioned by any means; she is simply a practical person who does what needs to be done in order to get what she needs out of those around her, when niceties need to secretly be put aside.
What's more, good interpersonal relations are the currency Jean trades in. Jean has mastered the art of being friendly and charming even when the person she is winning over induces nothing but feelings of revulsion. She engages them in a natural fashion, never seeming fake or insincere for a single moment (which DOESN'T mean that she is deceptive all the time - see first few personality paragraphs). She never feels guilty about such deceptions, however. Quite simply, she reasons her manipulative behaviour away as a ‘different form of communication’. Effective communication, Jean opines, involves putting things in a way that will get you your desired outcome, even if you go about things in a manner that’s not altogether straightforward. It’s not deceit. It’s effective communication.
A truth-seeker, the doctor is not inclined to believe anything just because someone told her so. While she might nod her head and smile just to play along, nothing exists to her unless it has been proven or if she has seen it with her own two eyes. She is, however, a curious woman and if something perks her interest significantly, she will investigate further to enhance or disprove her own opinions. Moreover, as a sharp child who lost some of her brain cells somewhere along the way during adolescence and early adulthood, Jean was not easy to fool. She never believed in Santa Claus (having been informed by her trustworthy “Uncle Greg” as she called him that there was not in fact a fat, bearded man coming down the chimney), and debated her mother fiercely when she tried to insist that Santa was real. Or the Easter Bunny. Or the Tooth Fairy. Simply put, whilst she considers that the irrationality of a thing is not an argument against its existence, she would rather see some kind of proof before choosing to take something for granted. Even the improbable is better than no proof at all in her eyes, which has made her no gullible goose and has extended to all the domains of her life.
Even if one is supposed to obtain a certain grace or coordination after so many years spent being terribly clumsy, that's hardly the case with Jean. Falling down staircases owing to missing a particular one, letting go of whatever she's holding and making it smash into pieces on the floor out of lack of attention, bumping into anything that stands in her way, putting her date's sleeve on fire after trying to impress him by swallowing fire in a club o.o, knocking her head against a wall without wanting to, spilling things on someone she was trying to help and shattering items she's closely observing in a shop are some of the things her lack of coordination and occasional attention have led to happening. Some might differ and claim that if she was more careful with where she was headed or what she's doing, Lil wouldn't have these issues. Oddly enough, though, the more attentive she is, the more often this type of incidents occur, resulting in her being humiliated again and again. Having noticed these things countless times before, however, some of hospital employees have either gotten used to her clumsiness or have chosen to disregard it, whereas others enjoy getting a kick out of seeing the walking disaster at work. What the majority of people don't know, however, is that all those exaggerated gestures and poorly coordinated moves have something to do with the people Jean's chatting with too, as she can sometimes let her feelings and enthusiasm get the best of her. Were she to unexpectedly encounter someone she hasn't seen in a very long while or someone she profoundly cares for, she would probably create a mess around her, partially because she can't help but allow her momentary emotions interfere with what little physical skills she has left. That is also the case when someone she truly admires asks her to do something, in which case Jean can be easily swayed. Even though she remains a skeptic about some of those deeds and may ponder on them beforehand, her heart can still command over her head at times. Therefore, strong emotions might cloud her mind and enable her to give in to a person's wishes without putting much thought into her acts. Should she realJeane that she's the deceived one in a situation, it's still doubtful that she would stand up if the deceiver is someone she greatly admires or adores. Chances are she'll merely pretend she believes what they're telling her. A caring person, Jean can additionally be adorably clueless about a person's hidden agenda. However, she has her limits too. In all honesty, she doesn’t care to be bossed around and likes things done HER way (but within reason). Despite her nice gal persona, she is not a pushover and is certainly not someone to be crossed if she feels as if she's being played like a puppet too much for her liking.
She can't make up her mind or stick to a decision for too long, and that's a fact. Whether it's about buying a piece of clothing, tempting another lost soul into taking the highway to hell or choosing which computer to try to hack next, Jean finds it quite difficult to make decisions sometimes, at least without another's assistance. Although she strives to see both sides of the question sometimes and to take ALL the possibilities into account, some have called her picky and chronically indecisive for not being able to decide on her own about important things. Once faced with difficulties, she has little determination to worry about a life-changing problem until she will find a solution - instead, she will pick the brains of others, change her initial choice in a heart's beat or indulge in postponing the matter until she will figure out what to do (see her history in Bruges). Even if she every so often manages to get out of trouble and resolve such issues, it is only after a lot of hard work is put into it and she requires someone's help, thus coming off as being as clingy as a vine, even childish because of her insistences to find out what everyone thinks she should do. More so, even when she will finally settle for doing something, a voice in her head will still nag her about which other course she could have taken, yet she regularly shuts that voice off out of a desire to not want to be back at square one.
In addition to all her flaws and qualities, Jean is a very headstrong individual, with an assertive personality. That isn't to say that she constantly wishes to command others or can become overbearing, just that when she's set her mind to do something of importance, she will let nothing and no one deter her from her goals. This is, however, limited to long-terms aims and future plans she is adamant about becoming true, and not trivial matters. Also, she won’t stand for being disrespected and might react with arrogance when spoken to in a condescending manner or when she feels even the slightest ounce of pity directed towards her. Other vices to which she is prone are anger, as she tends to flare up when she's feeling targeted; impatience - she wants to rush every new project through immediately and may demand too much of colleagues who cannot work at the pace she requires; and restlessness, which if excessive, can jeopardize more than her own stability. Furthermore, Jean's got a vindictive streak to her personality that rears its ugly head whenever she reckons someone's taken things too far. Although she's OK with conducting contradictory conversations and allows friendly rivalries as long as things don't get out of control, the witch resents those who scorn her or her beloved ones for their inadequacies, errors of judgments, allegiances and so forth. As a firm believer that everyone deserves that second chance, she despises those individuals who constitute exceptions to her rules, or who cannot see beyond their narrow-mindedness and treat others with disdain. Consequently, if someone will frequently irritate her AND won't keep things in a cordial context (as much as possible), the twenty-something will have no problem purchasing a one-way ticket to hell for them, on her, as she's not entirely as sweet as sugar. She will not only hold a grudge against her foes for a very long time, but she will also indulge in mentally torturing her opponents. It may take her years to get back at someone for an affront, still she might eventually accomplish it.
Passionate, fun-loving, friendly, compassionate, determined, strong, independent, manipulative, defensive, clumsy, restless, awkward, childish and mature in equal parts – that’s Jean, the paradox, for you.
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No matter to what degree a person is acquainted with Jenny, whether they hate her or love her or really could care less about her there’s one thing they could probably use to describe her: loud. Calling her vocal would be the polite way to put it. If Jenny was describing herself she would probably say something along the lines of “loud as fuck”. Certainly she is quite loud too. Some of the neighbors that she know swear up and down that they can hear her talking when she’s in her apartment and they’re in theirs. She never quite believed that one though. It doesn’t matter where she is or what she’s talking about or who she’s with she only seems to have one volume: loud enough so that the people across the room can hear her but not quite loud enough that she’s screaming. Okay, well, that’s not entirely true, she actually has two volumes: normal voice and the one she reserves for screaming matches. Yup, she only gets louder much to the dismay of the people who know her. Unfortunately this is the reason that people tend not to disclose private information to her in places where she could easily be overheard with that voice of hers. Her friends learned that one fast. Now this volume problem can sometimes be more than just a tad annoying for the people that she hangs around. In fact, most of the people she knows would even admit that at times she can be very obnoxious. It’s not just the fact that she’s loud though, it’s also the fact that she’s constantly running that mouth of hers. Oh yes, Jenny has an opinion about everything and is far from being afraid of voicing it to whoever’s nearest which can get a little old when she simply will not shut up. But that aside she also has a little problem that’s completely unrelated to the excessive loudness of her talking voice or anything to do with her voice. See she’s spent her entire life pushing people’s buttons. That seemed to transfer over to the rest of her life and has almost become a hobby of hers. Now she doesn’t do it all the time, but at least a good once a week she gets this urge to piss someone off. Why? Because it’s amusing for her. Sure, she doesn’t think it’s funny when she’s pissed off but when other people are it’s hilarious. There are very few people who are safe when she gets those urges. Not even her best friends or people she should be afraid are exempt from it. She learns what really gets to a person and then does everything in her power to exploit these little things that make them mad. Now sometimes she knows when to quit, but most of the time Jenny doesn’t know when to stop and keeps irritating people to the point that they blow up on her leaving her cackling about the whole thing. It certainly is a habit that has driven people away in the past and yet she persists in it.
Now she herself has little tolerance for people who play the same button-pushing games that she does. In fact anyone who’s at it for too long will probably receive a slap in the face or a knee to the balls. Hypocrite much? Sure, you could probably say that, but just not to Jenny because you would probably get slapped too. She’s never been the best at staying calm; no she just gets pissed and attacks the source of it. It’s an undesirable trait yet she’d be a terrible liar if she denied it. She doesn’t try to deny it though. She knows that she’s quick to take offense. Actually most people would probably say she is overly sensitive perceiving things they didn’t intend to be insults as insults. She’s never exactly bothered to attempt to reign in her temper either. It’s just one of her flaws and she could care less that she has a nasty temper. It’s part of who she is and people can accept it or not. That’s her policy of self-contentment. Jenny lives by that. After all, where is the point in hating yourself? You only make yourself miserable by doing that and the last thing this world needs is more depressed people. Or at least that’s her take on it. She’s willing to accept the fact that she’s full up to the brim with flaws and probably has few redeeming qualities and she manages to be okay with that. It makes her wonder how good people, the ones who are so incredibly pure that it’s almost unbelievable, the ones that never utter a bad word about anyone, the ones who are always helping other can’t then accept themselves. Obviously you’re the way you are for a reason because if there wasn’t a reason then you would be somebody else. So what’s the point in being all self-loathing? Yes, people do bad things, she’s done more than her fair share of bad things in her life, but if you aren’t willing to first grant yourself forgiveness it’s likely that no one else will either. Now she’s not saying that someone should be able to kill someone and walk away with a clean conscious, but she does think that people should be more tolerant of their own mistakes and beat themselves up over it all less. If people didn’t have flaws they’d hardly be human. Everyone has their faults no matter how perfect they may seem.
Now while it may not seem like a personality trait at first it certainly is a significant part of who she is. There is absolutely no doubt about it, Jenny Marchand is a complete klutz. She’s forever tripping over this or that or knocking over something or something else like that. She’s always been lacking in the grace department, even when she was a little girl she was quite clumsy. The first time that she stood up and started trying to walk she stumbled, fell, and knocked over a priceless vase in her living room. When she was crawling she continuously banged into anything and everything generally headfirst. Now that she can actually walk it’s only gotten worse. She would probably be a great deal less clumsy if she actually stopped and walked calmly and paid more attention to her surroundings, but that wouldn’t be Jenny’s style. She’s always running from place to place at top speed and therefore doesn’t have the time to see potential tripping dangers. Instead she discovers them when she crashes into them. But that’s life and she doesn’t mind the various bruises and cuts that constantly cover her body from various accidents. It makes her tough, she claims. Besides in a crowd you can always pick out her because the only other people with as many injuries on her body are probably seven year olds. Of course they’re also the only other ones who like to wear rainbow band-aids over their injuries as well. The number of injuries that she currently has might be considerably less if it weren’t for the conditions of her room. See she has this terrible habit of being perpetually disorganized to a point that it’s almost life threatening. This can be first seen by the way in which she starts her mornings. The minute that she wakes up Jenny blinks her blue eyes a couple of times, glances around for the time on the alarm clock, and then she picks the blankets covering her up and throws them on the floor before wandering in the direction of the shower frequently crashing into various furniture or the bathroom door in her half awake stupor. The room is a mess, things are scattered everywhere. Now don’t fear there is a method to it: see, everything that she likes is strewn all over the place and all the things she doesn’t like are in their actual spot. Clothes, for example, the ones that she wears on a consistent basis are haphazardly scattered all throughout the apartment until she really has no idea what’s clean and what’s not while the clothes that she wouldn’t be caught dead wearing are placed in the closet on the hangers. Books are another example of this. The ones that she loves are spread throughout the apartment stacked up on various surfaces with God knows what stacked on top of them and the ones that are boring sit on the shelf amassing all the dust they can. Her idea of tidying up is shoving everything she can into the nearest closet or under her bed. But don’t worry the chaos isn’t just limited to her room. Jenny’s backpack is threatening to explode with all the stuff that she keeps in there. If she were actually to clean it out she’d probably find stuff she had completely forgotten about. See, Jenny is a packrat and if she owned it at one point in time then she wants to keep it forever and ever. Needless to say her habits drive her parents insane.
Living in that mess she calls a room she would most certainly have to be able to look on the bright side to be able to stomach it. She is very good at that though. An optimist by nature Jenny can always be counted on to find the good in almost anything. She’s got a knack for finding that shred of hope in and clinging to it like her life depends on it. No matter how bleak everything can seem she’s finds something good about it. Your brother just died in some freak accident? Well the good news is you don’t have to look at his ugly mug. No, she wouldn’t really say that. She’d come up with something more consoling than that though she probably would have thought that last bit. Probably Jenny would remind you of all the good times you and your brother had together and how you’d see him after you die. She can even find something good to say about most people, she just doesn’t always choose to say those good things about them. If given the chance she could probably find something nice to say about her worst enemy, but more than likely she’d prefer not to focus more on how much she hates them than the redeeming qualities they might have.
Despite the way it may seem at times she generally has good intentions. Okay, obviously when she’s pushing people’s buttons that’s not very well-intentioned, but when she’s not doing that then she typically means well. When she isn’t in an ornery mood then she actually gets a get deal of satisfaction out of helping other people with whatever they need help with. See, she likes to see a little more happiness in the world and a smile plastered on their faces. This can be seen in times like when it was one of her closest friend’s birthdays and Jenny, aged nine, decided to bake a cake for them. However she ended up burning the cake so badly that her oven nearly caught fire and all the smoke alarms in her house were going off. But her thoughts were in the right place, the execution was just a little sloppy. Or rather, clumsy as is typical of her. Stuff like that happens often (though not as often involving fire and severely burnt cakes) in which she tries to do good and ends up messing it up somehow. It’s just one of those endearing qualities about her that make you want to give her a big hug after she screws up and is upset over it. Part of the fact that things never seem to go her way could be that she seems to be a magnet for trouble. Even when she isn’t looking for it trouble seems to creep up on her and envelopes her. Perhaps because of her inquisitive nature that can’t be suppressed and a thirst for adventure trouble inevitably finding her can only be anticipated. Of course, some of the time she does go seeking out trouble simply for amusement. But if someone goes looking for trouble half the time then it might only be expected that trouble comes and finds them when they aren’t chasing it. Plus with a mouth and an attitude like hers Jenny seems to only stir up more trouble where there was previously none. Ah well, at least it’s always a rush to try and wiggle out of a sticky situation so she really can’t complain. What kind of life would she have without her oldest and best friend mischief after all? Things would be rather dull without at least a little of it in her life. Lucky for her in this day and age there’s plenty of trouble to be had for anyone who so much as steps out their front door. Besides, adversity builds character, no?
Though she does a lot of things that would suggest otherwise in that chest of hers beats a heart made of gold. Well, perhaps not gold, but almost gold, like a copper-ish color maybe. The point is that this is the place from which all those aforementioned good intentions come from. Jenny is truly a caring person underneath it all, just she’s not always sure how to express these sorts of feelings. Definitely she has gotten better at this in her lifetime though. For the most part she’s able to show people her softer side though a few instances have arisen in which she found herself not sure how to go about it. But really she’s the kind of person who if they saw a couple of puppies on the sidewalk she’d take them all home and love them. Yes, really buried underneath everything she’s a big old softie. When someone asks for her help she has a hard time refusing them no matter how much to she wants to. Of course, generally she doesn’t want to not help people every other minute because she does have a life, but she probably couldn’t even tell her worst enemy no if they came to her on their knees. Well, maybe she could say no to her worst enemy. But her compassion is more than likely a problem She just can’t think of a possible way to amend it and she really does like to see the joy in people’s expressions after she’s done good for someone.
As loud people generally are she’s a very social person. Yes, she does like her solitude from time to time, but for the most part she’d rather be with people whose company she enjoys. Jenny is the type of person who could probably make a friend wherever she went even if it meant the person was only her friend because she’d followed them around talking to them until they finally gave in and couldn’t help but find her amusing at the very least. Humans are social creatures after all hence why towns and cities were formed. Yes, Jenny thoroughly enjoys meeting new people and talking to them and making friends and all that jazz. New people are fun and interesting and full of things that she could learn from them. Why would she not want to meet all of them that she could? She has no problem with walking up to a total stranger and striking up a conversation with them. Taking initiative and shyness have never been problems for her which probably works in her favor. Once she feels as though she can call a person her friend they’re in for a treat. Well, some of the time they’ll wish they’d never met her probably, but the utter loyalty that she gives to people that she cares for is more than enough pay-off for having to put up with all of her shit. They are the ones who get lavished with the love and affection. Messing with her friends is like messing with Jenny herself only probably a thousand times stupider. See it’s bad enough when you screw with her, but like most people when you screw with the people she holds dearly there’s gonna be a price. It just so happens that she sent a couple of her friend’s ex-boyfriends to the hospital wing after they decided they’d be funny and hurt her friends. As she befriended anyone and everyone she often had little first year buddies that would run to her when they were getting picked on by older kids and she’d deal with the bullies. It was a well-known fact that you didn’t mess with people that she cared about because she was not one to take it lightly. Her friends don’t even have to ask her to come to their rescue though, she’s more than happy to do so without being asked or even when she’s been told not to interfere. Hey, she’s a little overbearing, but she just wants to prove her devotion to those she cherishes and make sure no harm ever comes to them.
The thing people need to realize about her is that logic plays very little part in her life. She doesn’t think things through at all and certainly rationality is the last thing on her mind. Just because the laws of physics say that she can’t do something doesn’t mean that she won’t still try it. If she gets an idea in her head and people advise her against it she’ll still try to do it anyway. Impossible is not a word that she’s familiar with. When making a decision she certainly isn’t one to sit there and weigh the pros and cons. Instead she goes with the first idea that pops into that head of hers. She has her opinions and her thoughts and it doesn’t matter if they disagree with every law of the universe because they’re hers and therefore she believes them and consequentially because they are hers they must be right. You can disprove her theories about everything in the world a trillion times and she’ll still stand by them. Jenny’s never cared about what other people say or do, when she’s decided on something it is absolutely that way and there’s no swaying her. Facts are meaningless to her because she’s knows what she knows and she wouldn’t be at all concerned if she was the only person in the universe who agreed with her thoughts or could even follow them. It makes sense in her mind. Some people might call the fact that she’s willing to stand by her opinions through anything bravery. It is not debatable that she possess this quality, it’s of absolute certainty. However being brave doesn’t mean that she’s not ever afraid because that’s ridiculous. Everyone is afraid at one point in their life of something. Jenny has been afraid in her life; she’s still gets scared even at this point in her life. But having courage means never letting that fear show, it’s doing what you have to in the face of that fear. True valor can only be seen when a person is truly afraid, sure, there are glimpses of bravery when a person isn’t afraid, but that’s mostly just for show. False bravery, Jenny calls it. She’s got an abundance of that as well, but she’d like to think that she possess some of the real kind too. Most people she associates with would agree with that statement too. She draws on her optimism to give her that courage and takes comfort in knowing that she’s doing something good for the world. It’s what keeps her from backing down and running and hiding away from everything. Besides, she knows there are few people in the world that are willing to take the stand that she is and quitting would be a crime.
Always she has been one to tell it like it is. Jenny doesn’t need fancy words (though she knows quite a few and they do occasionally slip the in) to get her point across. She believes that people can identify more with simple words and therefore they have more power. Like her father she may not be the most articulate thing on the face of the planet but when the occasion calls for it she can make those simple words carry more weight than anyone thought possible. But when she talks she spares no one’s feelings, she doesn’t leave out the uncomfortable details, she doesn’t try to dress things up to make them nicer and easier to cope with. Essentially she fails to see the point in censorship. It’s the truth, why hide from it? You have to face it eventually. She’s blunt, no other way to put it. The words form in her head and seconds later they’re spilling from her mouth. It’s definitely caused problems for her before when she’s flinging hard truths into people’s faces and they don’t want to face them, but she could care less. If she was in denial of something she would want people to make her face it. The world would be a better place if everyone was more frank like she was, at least in her opinion. At times her bluntness is more like unnecessary rudeness, but it's only with people who deserve it. She can be a downright bitch to the people she hates. Unfortunately she is one of those people who is ruled by emotion. She’s always the one to follow her heart and unfortunately because of that she’s moody as they come. See her mother always frowned upon open displays of emotion viewing them as weakness and interference so she’s never tried to keep her feelings in check. When she’s happy, she lets the world know, when she’s angry, everyone around her can feel it, and when she’s upset you can tell by that look in her eyes. However even she does have her limits and puts her foot down when it comes to crying. It’s acceptable for other people to cry in public but Jenny refuses to do so. She’s stronger than that, not that she views the people who cry as weak, it would just be weak if she was doing it. The whole live by your emotions thing doesn’t always turn out so well for her; many people can’t handle all her ups and downs. Her emotions are frequently extreme so she’s either very happy or very pissed or very upset, she can’t ever seem to just settle in a happy medium. But whatever, that’s her and it makes everything more alive, life’s for living and you’re only living it fully if you feel alive, which she always does.
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