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Title: My story
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KayBear_n_JayBear - February 27, 2008 12:41 AM (GMT)
(this was c+p from another site where I explained my reasoning for pro-choice)

So I've been lurking around these forums for awhile, figured it's about time I told you all why I'm pro-choice.

When I was 13, I went over to my friends house for a birthday party. It was a huuuuuge deal, there were like 100 + people there with all of her friends and her family members. It was held outside in her back yard. It was a pool party, and I was soooooo excited to show off my new bathing suit. It was a pale pink tankini set with little blue and yellow polka spots all over it.

During the party, her uncle came out and asked me if I could help him bring out one of her presents. We went into the back bedroom, he closed and locked the door, and raped me. When he finally let me go, he said if I ever told anyone he would kidnap me and rape me every day for the rest of my life. I went into the bathroom, cleaned myself off, called my mom and told her I felt sick, and went home. I wasn't planning on telling my mom (some of you know a bit about her and can probably understand why.) but after a week and a half I started getting really scared that I could be pregnant. When I told her she was pissed. At me. She told me I was selfish for not telling her sooner because now there was no evidence of what had happened, and be cause of me he would probably go and rape more girls. Thanks mom.

Any ways a few weeks later we took a pregnancy test and it came out positive. We went to Planned Parenthood and they gave me the abortion pill, then gave me the second pill that I took 2 days later. I felt.. relived. When I found out I was pregnant I felt disgusted. I didn't have any attachments to the "baby" in me.... to me it was a "thing". Even now when I think about it I feel sick to my stomach.

Aborting was, honestly, the best thing I've ever done. If I had been forced to continue the pregnancy, I never would have met Jacob (I would have been 6 months pregnant when I went to the party where I first started talking to him) and we never would have had Jayden, who is my entire world.

Being forced to carry that thing in me for 9 months against my will would have been like being raped all over again every single day of the pregnancy. I probably would have killed myself - I was that disgusted with the thought of it.

When I was raped, I lost control over my own body. When I got pregnant, I lost it again. When I aborted, I got it back. Every woman deserves to have that option if she wishes.

Morganite - February 27, 2008 02:06 PM (GMT)
I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, and that your mom was so harsh; I'm a bit confused as to what her personality is like though--you haven't posted anything about that yet...Regardless, though she should not have put any sort of blame on you.

Did you tell your friend what happened immediately after? How did that turn out?

All that matters now is that you've got Jayden, and that you're happy :)

exhausted tears - February 29, 2008 08:24 PM (GMT)
I'm really glad that you were able to come out as strong as you are after going through all of that. And I'm so incredibly glad that God blessed you with Jayden. :)

wingedmary - March 4, 2008 10:08 AM (GMT)
that is an awful story, no evidence. i think you being pregnant was enough evidence, i am glad you got jayden. you a strong person i feel, we must be cause we came the out the other side not just victims but survivers. these abusers have got to take what they done to the grave. they gotta live with themselfs knowing they did was wrong. we have done nothing wrong

KayBear_n_JayBear - March 12, 2008 05:33 AM (GMT)
QUOTE (Morganite @ Feb 27 2008, 08:06 AM)
I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, and that your mom was so harsh; I'm a bit confused as to what her personality is like though--you haven't posted anything about that yet...Regardless, though she should not have put any sort of blame on you.

Did you tell your friend what happened immediately after? How did that turn out?

All that matters now is that you've got Jayden, and that you're happy :)

My mother is a psychotic bitch. I don't really feel like getting into details about her now, but I'm sure as I post more you'll start to get the picture. I leave it at this - she regrets getting talked out of an abortion and has reminded me that I shouldn't even be alive several times.

I didn't tell my friend... I didn't tell anyone but my parents for years. I just barely opened up to Jacob a few months before we started sleeping together, when I was a few months away from turning 16.

Morganite - March 14, 2008 12:55 AM (GMT)
I'm sorry that your mom treats you that way; remember that we are all here for you if you ever need anything at all.




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